| and confusion sets in like no other.... wishing things could be right |
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| I wish I was able to be more outspoken. To say what I feel. To let him know... To just be me. life is my a|n|t|i|d|r|u|g. |
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| our lives never looked so good its funny to think about how the days go by and we slowly drift into this stage where everyone is too busy to hang out, too busy to realize that life is a blessing. As i write this my mind is in a million different places with different emotions and i dont know how to stop them. It seems that ive become this person that doesnt do anything that i am just merely a human being who doesnt realize how precious life is how while writing this i feel empty. *sigh* there is no one to talk to because stupid me ive pushed them all away.. and the only person i talk to seems to not care... i miss who i was i miss who i am i miss the life i used to be so proud of saying was my own. the person ilove still doesnt understyand who I am but in some ways thats my fault...the person that knows my whole life story is well gone... and who knows for how long. I seem to push my parents away and i dont realize how good they can be to me... Im so tired of everything. Im in love with him...thats all i can say and for those who know me well they know who he is.. he is my rock.. my other half and my soul mate... in my eyes no matter how much wrong he has done..i still seem to love him even more... he is my knight in shining armor.... but as we sit here he will never know...because i being stupid have pushed him away. *shrugs* |
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| Live life to its fullest. days go by and i realize that this site is what got me started in my journal and what has most of my memories on. imma try to be on here more often. |
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Hello Xanga!!! wow it's been forever and a day *sticks out tongue*
So I started college this year.. Funny to think about since i started this
xanga in the 8th grade!!! 
Lol anywho... I got side tracked with my myspace...
so Im rarely on this thing.
But Ive decided that I will write in here more often.
Well I still work at Sonic...going on a little over 3 years. *GEEEEZZZZ*
I need a new job, but I like the fast cash...*sigh* Oh well..
Jordan is still gone.. he should be home in April...So far thats what I know.
Im seeing this one person...
who is absolutly cool.. nothing serious, we're just talking and having fun,
for now... But yeah Im sitting in English,,, the teacher isnt here once again so we have to do this wisesoft program...
BORING
but whatev...
Alright welll Imma get off for now... *Wisdom comes from suffering* |
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